There are times when life seems to take a major turn. We experience moments that are so powerful they burn a mark into our memory banks. When I was 24 years old I truly fell in love with a girl. I fell hard too. We were together for about six months. In the end the relationship didn’t work. I tried to forget her. I tried to burn every bridge we built. I tried to leave her in the past. Out of everything I wanted to lose, I kept this memory. The memory of our first kiss.
I still feel chills, every time I think of that moment. I felt so calm and so nervous all at once. If she would of let me, I could of stared at her all night. I could have just embraced that moment for an eternity. The look in her blues eyes, the sly, giggly smile she would make as I stared at the lines on her lips. She had teeth imprints on her lips, she claimed that it was a habit she formed out of boredom, but I believe it was a nervous thing.
As I describe this moment I can feel the Goosebumps growing on my forearms. Everything just felt natural. It felt as if everything was meant to be. This is what is described in film as “the perfect moment.”
She looked at me as I looked at her. I wondered if she could hear how loud my heart was beating.
All I could hear was the sound of her breathing. I watched her chest moved up and down, up and down. We were completely alone. As if we were the only two people the room. The only two people in the town. The only two people in the world.
“It almost feels like my first time,” she said smiling.
I had to compel myself to keep breathing, it took every ounce of energy I could posse to control my emotions. God is this really happening.
“What’s on your mind Gil?”
I didn’t know how to answer. I felt frozen. That small voice in the back of my head kept telling me to kiss her. Kiss her.Kiss her. Kiss her now.
“I don’t know? What’s on your mind?” Trying hard do my best Marlon Brando impression, but the words didn’t really come out like I wanted.
“Gil, do you want to kiss me?” Her voice sounded like a little kitten purring.
This was my moment to be cool.
“Do you want me to kiss you?” That totally did not sound cool.
She just shakes her head up and down. We both go in for the kill – 50/50. I kept my eyes open all the way up to the moment of impact. I watched as her eyes close and her lips puckered up. Contact. As her lips moved against mine I could taste her. A taste that I really can’t describe. It was such amazingly new experience that my brain went dead. All emotions were gone, it was just me and her, stuck in this moment. “This magic moment,” talk about clichés. I felt as if I had just crossed some major road in my life.
She sucked my bottom lip into her mouth and lightly bit it. It was such a new sensation that it shocked me. I pulled back.
“My lip.”
She let go. It was the first moment in my life where I felt completely air-headed.
“Did you like my kiss,” she asked with a sincere desire to know.
I really didn’t know what to say. I liked it, I liked it a lot. I just couldn’t put the words together. I just wanted to think for a moment.
The word came out slow, as if I learning to talk all over again. “Good,” was all I come whisper out.
Basic instinct took over and I went in for another kiss. During the second kiss I didn’t close my eyes. I watch as she moved her mouth. I found the movements of her mouth fascinating. She moved her mouth from mine.
“I’ve never been kissed so aggressively on first time with someone,” she said with that same sly smile. I became confused because she was the one biting my lip.
“This time try doing it slower,” she said.
On round three, everything became fuzzy…
…As we stood by her front door, we just held each other. The warmth of our bodies creating a glow around us. I buried my face into her neck, as I raised my head our eyes caught. I gave her a small kiss on the lips. It made a smacking sound. I made my way up the stairs. I could hear the sprinkler system turning on. Right before I reached my car a wave of cold water hits me in the face.
It was such a magical moment for me that I didn’t feel the effects of it till the next day.
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